After supper Amy and I went for a walk. It was about 8:00 and I noticed that it was a lot darker than when we went for after supper walks a week or two back. I reminisced on those wonderful days of being out and about until 9:30 and it still being light, and bemoaned the fact that it will now get darker earlier and earlier each night and take longer and longer to get light in the morning.
I know it's all part of the seasons, but there are times where the seasons of life feel like that. Our world becomes so dark and gloomy that we can't remember the bright and joyful days. It could be a marriage that isn't as loving as it once felt, a friendship that has soured with time, or a career that doesn't bring the fulfillment it once did. When these times come we wonder "Why did I ever start this?"
Listen to these words of Asaph:
"Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
Sounds like us, doesn't it? "Where are you God? Why don't you answer? Where is your promise to never leave us nor forsake us?" Sometimes we get to these points with God where it seems that the light will never shine again. It feels like all is dark and God is nowhere to be found.
As Asaph was having these thoughts, he responded to himself with this thought which rings true for us as well:
"I will remember the deeds of the Lord;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds."
Asaph refused to stay in that place of self-pity. He chose instead to look to the faithfulness of God from before and remind himself that the same God who was faithful then would be faithful in the here and now.
A good reminder to us today. I do not worry that this approaching season of more dark than light in a day will last. I know as we come back around to April and May, we will again have our daylight hours. In the same way, I must also remember that the God who was faithful to me in the past will be faithful with my present and future. Like Asaph, we need to take time to remember God's past miracles and deeds in our lives and meditate on those things instead of ruminating on the abysmal moment we find ourselves in. We must not forget God's past faithfulness to us and how it is a promise of future blessings.