Darby and Moira set up our homemade slip and slide on July 4. It is a large piece of house wrap that they stake to the ground and then pour soap on and have a sprinkler hosing down. It's a little more durable than a regular slip and slide, which is good because we are a bit rougher on it.
Darby, Mo, Zeke, and I were all going for it and even convinced Amy to join in. It was a lot of fun, and a great way to cool down on a hot day! Of course, as usually happens around here, it turned into a competition; who had the best slide judged on distance, style and creativity. It was at that point that I decided to go on a knee in a superhero pose and the foolishness of my decision became evident. I did it and it looked epic, but as I came to the end and stepped off I felt a pain in my toe. I knew I had jammed it, but the fun must go on, and I thought nothing more of it.
Yesterday, while getting a haircut from Amy I noticed that my toe is purple and brown. I showed her, and she laughed and said, "What happened to THAT one?" pointing to my pinky toe. I saw the blood blister on it and it was then that I remembered jamming another toe walking around barefoot in the dark last week. Again, foolishness on my part.
David in Psalm 38 says, "My wounds are foul and festering because of my foolishness." He here is talking of the self-inflicted wounds of his sin. As he is complaining that all the world is distant and he is in mourning and anguish, he acknowledges that it is his own foolishness that has brought him to this point.
A lot of times that is how it is with our sin. It is brought on us by our own foolishness. It isn't until we acknowledge our part in it that we can begin the process of asking for forgiveness and restoring the relationship lost with our loving Father and fellow human beings. If we stubbornly blame others or circumstances, we won't come to that place.
However, as a pain in my toe reminds me of my foolishness, so does the pain of ruined relationships and the faintness from sleepless nights and the anguish of a crushed heart remind us of the need to be healed and restored. Now you have the choice- will you "confess your guilt" (vs. 18) to the Lord in whom you put your hope (vs. 15) or will you continue in your foolishness and anguish and mourning?
David knew what he would do, and I do too.